In the waiting…

I want to be married! In fact, at 29, I kinda already thought I would be. With one or two babes and maybe another on the way. Oh, and of course, own a house, in the country. That’s always been my dream. However, the reality is I’m single, recently out of a 6 1/2 year relationship and living at home. Oh, and no prospects in sight. You can kind of feel like you may be single forever! (Which FYI, is a REALLY long time!)

I know what I could do to change this ‘FB status’ …I could do on-line dating, ask friends to set me up, troll the aisles at Home Depot 😉 looking for eligible bachelors. Accept every invitation to every ‘event’, only going with the sole purpose of finding a potential husband. I could even research and switch to the church with the largest single men to single woman ratio. I could try to orchestrate a ‘divine encounter’ that could lead me to picking out china patterns and baby names.

But then what?! I may have gotten what I desired and thought I needed, but will it be enough? Will I ultimately become ‘dis-satisfied’ when I put all my expectations on a husband to make be feel happy or fulfilled? Nobody’s perfect. And when I place these expectations on a person to be my ‘answer’ they will ultimately ‘fail’ me. Inevitable. Because, I’ve come to realize, that nobody can live up to that expectation and be that ‘answer’ to everything. There’s only one who can take on that role for me.

Hebrews 13:8 (NIV)
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

But the thing with God is, He gives us a choice. He already chose us but He wants us to choose Him. So here I am…No back up plan to find a husband if He doesn’t ‘come through’. Just faith. Walking in faith with God.

Romans 8:32 (NIV)
He who did not spare his own son, but gave him up for us all-how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?

I believe, in my heart of hearts, that God wants to give us our hearts desire. But I am also coming to understand that like a father, He knows the best timing for these desires to come true. So in the meantime, while I’m patiently waiting for God to deliver my Mr.Right, I’ll be working on another relationship…with the other man in my life, Jesus.

“A girl’s heart should be so lost in God that a guy has to seek Him to find her”
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